10 days

So the day is coming up closer. And honestly, up until three minutes ago I was only feeling sad about leaving Costa Rica. Sure, I felt that once I am home I will feel good  about seeing friends and family again, but I never felt like it would make me feel HAPPY to go home. 

Then now I saw a post my friend Maja had published on facebook. All of a sudden I got some kind of shiver of happiness. I will see Maja in ten days. In only ten days I will get to see the people I've missed during this year. In ten days.

I started laughing about the fact, and for a minute there I felt truly happy. But then I realized, again, that in ten days I'm leaving my life in Costa Rica. In ten days. So I started crying. 

This whole laughing-and-crying-at-the-same-time thing is making it terrible to try sleeping. But eh, who needs to sleep when there is coffee? 

I can waste my time sleeping once I'm back in Sweden.

Countdown?

Some friends ask me why I haven't started a countdown. Why I still don't know the exact number of days and hours until I get to see my family again. Well okey maybe I should have a countdown for that. But for the day I leave Costa Rica? I would like that day to just never arrive. I already have a life here. A home. A family. Friends. 

Do I really need to go home?

 

Some months ago I still didn't consider this my real life. It took me time to get in to all of this, and I also think I thought it was easier to always think of this as my year off. Well it's not anymore. I'm not on vacations. I'm not that fascinated anymore that I almost cry by seeing monkeys, dolphins, trees, sting rays etc. Don't get me wrong, I still consider all of this amazing, it's just that it's a part of my daily life now.

And how do I live without that?

The rice and beans? The cold shower in the morning? The school uniform? The warming sun while waiting for the schoolbus? Seeing all my friends at school? Not really having to study? Sneeking in in front of everybody in the terrible lunchline? Rice and beans? The brushing of your teeth next to the rest of the school after lunch? That heat that almost kills you in the middle of the day? The fact that the schoolbus is always leaving when you're having most fun? Talking to Anita, Hellen, Kevin or Laura all afternoon? Watching the babypigs and feeding them from a bottle? Telling the dogs how they have to stop rolling in the dirt but that they're cute anyways? More rice and beans? Having to sleep before nine to survive the next day in school?

And of course, the beach, the trips, the weeks and weekends with some of the most wonderful persons in the world. The scubadiving and the occasional surfing (haha didn't happen that often). The nights at Las Brisas, the salsa, the times I dance with Mateo in school, and the evenings I stay at La Paz after gymnastics dancing on my own. Every day getting to know new persons, learning new things about Costa Rica and ticoculture and always learning more spanish. The freedom. The happiness. La pura vida.

I just can't, I just can't leave this. But let's face the truth, I can't stay forever either.

Lo único que quiero es bailar

Dancing salsa with Mateo. Gaaaaaaah I don't want to sleep, right now I just feel like dancing!

Visa, rainy season and elections

Nine months later we finally have our visas!

Thursday to Friday I was in San Jose with these girls to finally get our visas. We applied nine months ago, and now we have them! It's just that we're going home in about two months and two weeks. Or atleast I am. Vali is not going home until the end of July and Linnea is going next week.

Being in San Jose I missed the very first rain in Brasilito in six months! But that's alright, today it was raining again. And man, I must say I had forgotten how much water can fall from the sky when it's raining here. It's sick. So now rainy season is here again, but living in Guanacaste it's luckily not that bad at all. Today we've all been helping out at this voting here in Brasilito. I just served tamales, coffee and softdrinks wearing a "vote 3" t-shirt all day. It was cool, but I think my hands will never stop smelling like tamal, haha. 

Tomorrow I have school, but I'll go early to help out at gymnasticsclasses and teach contemporary dance classes. I got sooo surprised when they asked me if I wanted to do that, but I must say it is a lot of fun. And I mean I'm not a pro, but I guess you don't always have to be one, right?

Beaches I didn't know existed

Yesterday I only stayed at the birthdayparty in Tamrindo for a while and then went to Playa Minas, another beach I don't know the name of and Playa Piratas. I've never been to any of those three so it was cool. I actually didn't even know that they existed and thought that the first beach south of Playa Conchal was Playa Grande, when actually there are four beaches in between. Untouched, calm, empty and beautiful beaches.

#Livinginparadise

Miss you <3

Holy week was such a great week as Vali stayed here in the house and Bram and Henry were camping in brasilito. O my god their tent was so so so small, haha. All week we went to the beach, got burned, ate a lot, played guitar in the sand and just had the best time.

One more time please please please.

Birthdayparty in Tamarindo

It has been a very easy week in school with thursday off ( had a sleepover with Patti on Playa Prieta) and sportsday on friday (I danced salsa and played volleyboll for 30 minutes and that was it). I can't believe it's already weekend! Actually school is so much fun here because we don't have that many classes, so I never feel like I'm really in school from 7:00 to 16:15 all week. And since my friends live quite far away I mostly just see them in school and on the weekends I do otjer things (beach beach beach).

Today though, I'm going to Tamarindo to celebrate the birthday of a classmate. I just gotta drag myself out of the bed and in to the shower to then take the bus there.

I don't want to go home in two and a half months :'(